Wow it’s been a while. I guess you could say that I took an involuntary break, as in I don't have a computer... Any who, a lot has been going on lately, I feel like God is gearing me up for a big push; it’s been a great time. Yeah not really, I feel like I go through day to day in a haze. Then randomly something happens that takes me back a few steps or brings me to my knees. Take for example this past week, Christmas day I was in a funk, taking everything in, having a good time, but then again, it seemed that I was moving slowly. Then the next day I woke up with the right side of my face swollen immensely, I have an abscessed tooth, I guess I'm finally paying the piper for not brushing my teeth as a kid. Well that woke me out of the funk. I worked both jobs and barely got through it, going to my parents house that night and waking up with a bigger face and a black eye from the swelling. So now I have to figure out some way to pay a 600 dollar dental bill. Really what I'm wondering is what is God trying to tell me through this. I'm applying for an internship with a young life camp for the summer, or at least I would like to, my focus has been on this for the past few weeks of prayer. Not my will but his. Is this God's way of simplifying the choice? But really what is he saying? Should I stay or should I go?