Now Untitled

This is the massive edit from the piece I put up last week. Let me know how you like the changes.


Once again I am walking down an alley in the city
Stumbling like a child learning to take its first steps
Muscles cramp as I take a leap, mind exploding as I soar
But in reality I know that I am broken
Black heart fueled by, the booze, the women, the writing
In this moment I have lost the ability to be Respnsible
On the fire escape, paint in hand, my brain has wandered
Now on life's tilt a whirl, morality has left me and taken with it thoughts of
Rent, work, my girlfriend, my family
Each one falls to the wayside like the rungs beneath my feet
My body aches
Mind jolting back to life
Pavement
Pain
I have fallen again
Silently I pray nobody saw
Yet with the cackling of a bum lke a scavenger filled on its latest meal of decay, the truth finds me
God damn crows
I take a step and collapse
Body elelctrified by pain
Wet fingers
Blood
Vomit
I feel death
Wobbly waltzing into the street a cab driver swerves to avoid me
Suddenly sober, cememted to reality by the brightness of headlights, the train of understanding cuts me in two
Entrails spill out and begin to flow away
Tied to me by the umbilical cord of my
Responsibility
Helpless, I lay down in the gutter and close my eyes one last time
Opening them slowly I see a darkened room
Monitor quietly beeping the sad serenade of my heartbeat
I'm alive
Dammit
I have been here for months
Dreaming
Fighting
Waiting for sleep to finally claim me